Who knew? Who
knew how weepy I would be leaving the US on this amazing life changing
adventure? I was in the airport going through the security and could not
stop the tears. Then I prayed to God to send me a sign that I had made
the right decision and to help me get myself together. Exactly five
minutes later I see William Kellibrew aka BamBam my brother's friend
from childhood. He was so happy to see me that it made my day
completely. I stopped crying said hello and began to chat him up about
my brother Tony's new wife & new baby.
Tony - Ada - Franzi
This
shook it up for me. It was a break in the clouds...at least until I got
to the gate. I talked to a friend that made me feel more blue. Not
purposely, mind you, I just felt like I was needed at home more than I
needed to be away. I wanted desperately to help everyone before I left
but I ran out of time. I was feeling very selfish. The tears started
again. Then something amazing happened - I said good bye. I got off the
phone. I wiped my face and sat for a minute. Quiet. I sent a text to a
friend that is so straight forward and politically incorrect - on
purpose. This person encourages me to be selfish more often, a little
naughty, and makes me howl like a monkey with laughter. My phone rang
and just like that I was laughing.. I was back on the right track.
I
feel loved. I want to spread this love. I feel like I am doing the
right thing. I need to give something to people with a higher level of
need. I feel free.
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